Tuesday, May 3, 2011

We can do this...


Tonight you cried. You cried a lot. You cried out of pain. You cried out of frustration. You cried because you actually wanted food and doctors would not allow it. You have not been allowed real liquid or solid food since the Wednesday. The areas surrounding your eyes look as if you have no slept for 6 months. You are sensitive to light. You are sensitive to sound. You have no energy. You keep your own box of tissues next to you... not because you have a cold but because you cry so much you don't want to wet your shirt. You tell nurses the need to hurry and tell the doctors to read your results because you hurt. People get pneumonia. People get liver issues. People get internal bleeding. People get intestinal issues. People get kidney failures. People get cancer. People have multiple surgeries in the same day. Then again in the same week. People get multiple biopsies. People get transfusions. You got nearly 20 of those and everything else I listed in the last 60 days. Habeebti and my best friend Ayah... how do you do that? As I said on my own profile... people would play with you or talk to you and say "You are just like your uncle Said"... but I wish your uncle Said was just like you!
I will continue to support you in any way that I can. I won't eat until you eat. I won't drink until you drink. I won't sleep if you are not sleeping. I will not do anything that you cannot do if it makes you feel bad that you are not there. We spend our lives wishing to gain the approval of everyone but I only look to gain the approval of my creator but on top of that I want to be the best person I can in this world so when you are all better... I want you to be able to put a chair on stage for you to sit in and watch my show from the best seat in the house. I don't care if they laugh... I just want to hear your giggle.

YOU AMAZE ME and I HOPE to represent a part of you. Friends of mine who are by my side with this in my opinion are lucky to be witnessing greatness when I speak about you because you are greatness. And anybody who leaves my side in any way probably did it because the expectations that go along with knowing such an amazing family with our amazing Ayah was just way to much for them to live up to. Its God's way of filtering out the warriors from the rest. I will read this to you tomorrow Ayah. 
 
- Said Durrah


15 comments:

  1. This made me cry

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  2. I need to meet her Samir <3 I love her so much

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  3. She's so cute and strong..I love her

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  4. I need to meet her too

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  5. I must say that my family and I are going through rough times ourselves but anytime I'm feeling down I just think, "If little Ayah can get through what she's going through then this is nothing." Thank you Ayah for being my new and constant source of inspiration! Remember you're beautiful and strong which is why your courageous spirit is going to beat this terrible illness :) ♥

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  6. From Spain....

    May Lord bless and guard you... May Him show you His face and bring you peace in your LIFE! MAY GOD BLESS YOU.... Amen!

    Te deseo toda la suerte del mundo! (K)

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  7. ♥ Be strong beautiful. We're all praying for you!

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  8. Thinking of you today and always Ayah! Big hugs to you!!! ♥

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  9. I just told her I hope she is feeling better so she can eat a Chipotle burrito the size of her head with you! :-)

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  10. I don't know you or ur family but u have touched my heart! hope you get better and I pray for you all the time

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  11. Thinking of you and praying for you ayah

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  12. Ayah I hope you're feeling better! Keep fighting. I will always keep you in my prayers

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  13. Sending positive thoughts and prayers ♥

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